a little vaca time.

Tomorrow afternoon we are headed to Rayong with the Ketchams. Apparently it's a pretty hoppin' beach.

Our team went on outreach in the bars last night. I was so excited to go and it was the main highlight of the trip that I was looking forward to. Trying to look into this girl's face and let her know that I love her, but still not be distracted or shocked by the things going on around me. To be totally amazed at God's power cutting through the spirits in those places. That's what I was excited for.
But for some reason I had a funny feeling. So instead of helping make jewelry I just sat and read. Something was up. I felt the spirit telling me that it wasn't a good idea for me to go. for two hours I went back and forth thinking through that night. Yes, I would be more suceptable to some of the spiritual stuff because of what I've been through in the past...But I know that God is stronger than any of the spirits that I would ever come in contact with. I had my lists of pros and cons. I kept praying for wisdom, but I just didn't know what to do.
After we had taught that afternoon we went to the office and got our forms that we had to sign before going on outreach. There was a long list of do's and don'ts that we read through as a team. Toward the end of the list it said, "Do be prepared for spiritaul warfare. You may have bad dreams, illnesses...." I stopped reading and thought, "hmmm....strange. That's already happened to me." I said that outloud just for affirmation, hoping that the other girls knew what I was talking about. But I didn't get it. Then mom looked at me and said, "We have to talk." She pulled me aside and told me how the past few days she has had apprehention about me going on outreach, but didn't want to say anything because she thought I would just brush her off as a worrisome mother.
Then I knew that I couldn't go. We talked to David and he agreed not to go and mess with it. So instead of going on outreach, I hung out with the Ketcham kids. Still great fun.

So I wish that I could tell you how lifechanging and awesome it was to go into the bars and be in constant prayer for these women whose lives are at risk, and for these men who are blinded by lust. But I know that there is a very good reason why I wasn't supposed to go. And I am so thankful that God is protecting me.